Apology

A Procession Of Days

Make No Noticable Dent

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sonofdarold
I'm still here. I work too much. I think it's my way of avoiding dealing with not having anything in California besides work.

I'm coming up on two years since the breakup. I don't think about her everyday anyore. A day skips by here and there. It's still sad though. It's a bummer when the one person in life you've been the most honest and true with decides you're not worth being around. I'm getting better though. I'm less bitter. I have good days. California isn't my long term home but I'm glad I left michigan. I was a few months away from being a very angry emotionally unstable liability with a DUI. I'm getting better. Maybe another year? I hope so.

I hope I make friends here soon. it's very lonely. I watch a lot of Netflix.

I booked a flight back for Paczki Day. That will be nice.

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sonofdarold
I worked 103 hours this week. I'm the king of textbooks.

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sonofdarold
im still alive

Fucking Fucking
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sonofdarold
I took the end of the night and recorded the song I just wrote. I put in more effort than I normally do with demos. I programmed the drums from scratch, which I hate doing, and I'm not all that great at. I recorded two rhythm guitar tracks, a fills track, live bass, a solo, and some synth frills. It's still an amateur home recording made in my bedroom though.

But it's the happiest angry song I've written. Or is it the angriest happy song? I dunno… It's in a bouncy major key but lyrically pretty bitter.

https://soundcloud.com/bklovski/fucking-fucking

Fix me
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sonofdarold
Well this is a fun email to write at 9 am. I really should move to California. I'm hoping thousands of miles will ease my head. A friend jokingly asked if I'd be going to California with an aching in my heart. I would be. I talk to the region manager there on Mon or Tue next week.

Elizabeth Williamson,

You never forwarded a gmail address as promised so I am using your yahoo address.
You never contacted me to figure out a way to take care of this without dragging it our for years, as promised.
Your payment due Dec 25 was mailed 10 days delinquent and arrived 14 days delinquent.
Your payment due Jan 25 has yet to be received and is currently 13 days delinquent.
Since agreeing to this payment plan, 50% of your payments have been delinquent.

At your current rate of $100 per month, you will be sending me checks until Feb 2015. I truly want to stop seeing your name every month. You told me you would look into taking care of this and haven't responded in over half a year.

At the very least, your payments need to arrive on time. If not, it will be a matter for the courts and I will begin seeking some form of penalty or late payment fee. Preferably you will find a way to not stretch my generosity into two years of misery for me.

This is business. I don't need to know your story or reasons nor do I want to know them. The only responses I need from your are prompt payments and then whatever information I'll need to wrap this up sooner than 2015.

Brian Klovski

It's a good song.
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sonofdarold


I might be moving to Northern California.

Hips
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sonofdarold
So I got a hipster shaggy mohawk haircut in Hollywood. Since coming back and updating my dating profiles with said hipster 'do, I'm getting like ten times more responses and interest. I don't know if I should be happy for the attention or annoyed by how shallow folks are. All it takes is a dumb weird haircut, huh? Blarghy...

Room 13
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sonofdarold
I'm still alive. The days come and go with varying degrees of difficulty and pain. I try my best to stay numb. I have an internet date tonight. It's been awhile since I've done that. It's not as easy as it used to be. I think girls are more guarded and pickier on internet dating sites than they were 10 years ago.

1800flowers.com
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sonofdarold

I sent her flowers to the elementary school she works at today. The arrangement was shaped like a cupcake. Girls still really like getting flowers. So that's good to know.

UPDATE: She LOVED the flowers. She said "You are so cute! Thank you so much! The flowers are adorable! I've never gotten flowers at work before!"

And she sent me a picture of her arrangement.

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I'm drifing
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sonofdarold

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