Apology

A Procession Of Days

Make No Noticable Dent

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Sparklehorse
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I often come back to this song.

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Of course I didn't sleep last night. Why would I?

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I haven't slept since yesterday. Often the insomnia burn feels just like coming down from acid when I was a kid. It's a really slow disconnected hell. I need it to end or something bad will probably happen.

Insomnias
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I finally fell asleep around 7 am. I was supposed to be into work at 10 am. I slept through two alarms and got four hours sleep instead of 2.5. Insomnia is ruining me.

me
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Woke up at the end of another Reconciliation Dream. I've been sick to my stomach since. I start moving my things to a new house today. Maybe a new venue will help. I have an appointment with a Psy-something Dr tomorrow. I'm hoping to cut back on the debilitating insomnia, crippling anxiety, and immense depression.


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i was going to make a post about how i moved forward a little today and maybe could be a bit more positive about things. then i got mugged and had a gun put to my head. so i'm not feeling as optimistic anymore. they took $150, my wallet, my cell phone, and all my home and work keys. i have to have my car rekeyed and reprogrammed as it's a keyless ignition. i have to buy a new cell phone. overall this will cost me around $1,000 and a lot of grief and headaches.

i give up.

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I haven't slept in over three days. Goodness I hope this stops soon.


Hell
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I just woke up from a dream. I was looking at places to move into. She showed up and told me she missed me too much. And that she couldn't stand to stay apart any longer. And that she wanted to move in with me again. I told her that I felt the same. But if we were going to do this we had some important things to work out and that we couldn't just go back being together without changing some things and hope it works out. She said she was glad I felt that way and agreed.

 

I woke up and for half a second i thought it was real and I was calm and relieved. Dreams are a real motherfucker these days.

 


Unwelcome Guest
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sonofdarold


To the rich man's bright lodges, I ride in this wind
On my good horse, I call you, my shiny Black Bess
To the playhouse of fortune, to take the bright silver
And gold you have taken from somebody else

And as we go riding, in the damp foggy midnight
You snort, my good pony and you give me your best
For you know and I know, good horse 'mongst the rich ones
How oftimes we go there, an unwelcome guest

I never took food from the widows and orphans
And never a hardworking man I oppressed
So take your pace easy, for home soon like lightning
We soon will be riding, my shiny Black Bess

No fat rich man's pony, can ever overtake you
And there's not a rider from the east to the west
Who could hold you a light in this dark mist and midnight
When the potbellied thieves chase the unwelcome guest

I don't know, good horse, as we trot in this dark here
That robbing the rich is for worse or for best
They take it by stealing and lying and gambling
And I take it my way, my shiny Black Bess

I treat horses good and I'm friendly to strangers
I ride and your running makes my guns talk the best
And the rangers and deputies are hired by the rich man
To catch me and hang me, my shining Black Bess

Yes, they'll catch me napping, one day and they'll kill me
And then I'll be gone but that won't be my end
For my guns and my saddle will always be filled
By unwelcome travelers and other brave men

And they'll take the money and spread it out equal
Just like the Bible and the Prophets suggest
But men that go riding, to help these poor workers
The rich will cut down like an unwelcome guest

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